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The Ghost of the Journey

 The Ghost of the Journey The steam from the shower still clings to the mirror, a warm shroud that feels like a betrayal of the cold I used to carry. Standing here, dripping and quiet, my mind suddenly performs that old, frantic dance—the "Hospital Dash." I remember the biting wind on the walk home, the way I would scrub the clinical smell from my hair in a race against the clock. A quick change of clothes. A scorched throat from a tea gulped too fast. A blurred glance at the bank balance—counting the cost of devotion in pence and minutes. Then, the breathless rush back to your bedside, as if my presence alone was the only thing keeping the machines humming. I caught myself today, wondering why the ghost of that journey still haunts my morning ritual. You aren't in those sterile corridors anymore. You aren't behind those heavy ward doors where the air tastes of antiseptic and hushed voices. You are so very far away now—in a "there" that no bus route can reac...
  The 3 PM Shadow The 3 PM Shadow It’s Good Friday again, but where is the "good"? In the splinters of a cross, or the spilled, holy blood? How can torture be sacred? How is persecution a grace? When the world barely pauses to look at His face. The shops open late, a slow Sunday crawl, While families crowd tables and ignore the call. Even the cogs of the healers have ground to a halt, Leaving patients in limbo—through no one’s own fault. So forgive me, Great Maker, if I skip the oak pew, For I’m still a bit "cross," still a bit angry with You. I can’t weep for Your Son when I’m drowning in her, In the scent of the "white sticks" and the hospital’s blur. The fumes that I breathed while I stood by her side, While the "medical crap" took her out with the tide. You made us in Your image, or so the tale goes, But You left us defenseless against all these woes. Cancer and vertigo, dementia’s cruel theft— What kind of a Father leaves a daughter bereft? ...